Reshuffle

Since my previous post things have gone from bad to worse. Though the last word has not been said, it seems that our plans for Cincinnati are not going to be realized. I don't know where it is stuck, nor if there can be a solution for it, but time is running out. I think it is better to say that time ran out. I can't see how we can manage to do everything that still needs to be done before the start of the academic year on September 24. D has raised enough funds to show for the immigration officers, got her I-20, and awaits her meeting next week. Unfortunately, I cannot show any progress and therefore we'll most certainly cancel our plans.
One problem of this situation, besides the obvious disappointment and the inability to make decisions due to unknown factors, is the feeling of betrayal. I put my faith in a person, despite the knowledge that Cincinnati is not the best of towns, and that the university is not the best of its kind. After the past two months, I feel that my faith has been wrong and it's not a good feeling. Suppose that evreything miraculosly falls into place, do I still want to go to this place and work with this person?
This calls for a total reshuffle of our plans. We went to a meeting organized by MIT Sloan school of business, which made me want to become a part of MIT (although not that specific school). I definitely want to study for my Ph.D., because the reasons for doing so have not changed. I still want to open more opportunities, and have a glance at academic life. MIT can also mean that we will be able to relocate, via D's work, and then our financial problems be minimized. It's also Boston, which is probably the largest university town in the world, with so many fine institutions and chances for students. This time, however, I want to broaden the search and not focus on the one institution where I can find a place. This means waiting for another year, but hopefully the result will be better and more satisfying for both of us. With my scores and grades from the previous degrees I know I can find a good place to study.